Confessions of a Creative Writer

Kyrie

At times my life suddenly opens its eyes in the dark.

A feeling of masses of people pushing blindly

through the streets, excitedly, toward some miracle,

while I remain here and no one sees me.

It is like the child who falls asleep in terror

listening to the heavy thumps of his heart.

For a long, long time till morning puts his light in the locks

and the doors of darkness open.

Tomas Tranströmer (translation by Robert Bly)

[Poetry] is the liquid voice that can wear through stone.
— Adrienne Rich, What Is Found There (via bookoasis)

(via bookoasis-deactivated20120227)

Hrm.

Today I was thinking. I’ve been getting a lot of writing done today based on word prompts I chose at random. Basically, I picked a bunch of poetry books from my office and home library, flicked through them and stopped at random and whatever word my finger was on I wrote down until I had a group of 15 words. I then used these 15 words in a poem. It’s been pretty successful considering my recent dry spell. 

So, I’m working on three new pieces out of six I’m determined to have to show my supervisor this week. I’m happy with two of them, but they’re so much darker than anything I’ve written in a while. It’s actually taken almost three months for me to process some things that are now starting to appear in my writing without me thinking about it til afterwards. Anyways, I’ll have the finished pieces up on my poetry blog a lot later once I’ve drafted the everlasting shit out of them. Balla.

The 10 Best American Poems (according to the Guardian)

‘One Art’ isn’t my favourite Bishop poem by a long shot. ‘Roosters’, ‘The Moose’, ‘At the Fishhouses’ are all in there ahead of it. That said, it’s nice to see her on the list. My own would be very different and probably include Frank O’Hara, Allen Ginsberg, Adrienne Rich, William Carlos Williams (why the heck isn’t he on the list??) and probably Sylvia Plath as well.

Listening to music while writing

What do you listen to when you write creatively? I can’t listen to anything with lyrics, I think most people would agree with me there. I can write in the quiet, sometimes it is necessary especially with poetry as the rhythms in the music can upset the rhythms of the poem when you read it aloud to make sure it is working they way you want it. Sometimes when you are searching for a rhythm you can find it in what you are listening to. Here is a list of music I listen to when writing:

Peter Broderick - Music For Falling From Trees (album)

Arvo Part - Cantus in memoriam Benjamin Britten

Philip Glass - Glassworks (album)

Olafur Arnalds - Euology For Evolution & …and they have escaped the weight of darkness (albums)

Max Richter - Infra & Blue Notebooks (albums)

Wine

The soft skin of her neck so near

makes the other girl wine in her mouth

spilling onto the cotton sheets.

Words become gasps

spread through blushes

and the crush of the wanting inside.

The way her lips

frame her red moans

over white upon white into white.

With a brush of her hand

on bare shoulder

she blazes inside with new heat.

—-

This is a poem I wrote over a year ago and I’m very happy with it.

But poems are like dreams: in them you put what you don’t know you know.
— Adrienne Rich, ‘When We Dead Reawaken: Writing as Re-Vision’
Roosters
At four o’clockin the gun-metal blue darkwe hear the first crow of the first cockjust belowthe gun-metal blue windowand immediately there is an echooff in the distance,then one from the backyard fence,then one, with horrible insistence,grates like a wet match from the broccoli patch,flares,and all over town begins to catch.Cries galorecome from the water-closet door,from the dropping-plastered henhouse floor,where in the blue blur their rusting wives admire,the roosters brace their cruel feet and glarewith stupid eyeswhile from their beaks there risethe uncontrolled, traditional cries.Deep from protruding chestsin green-gold medals dressed,planned to command and terrorize the rest,the many wives who lead hens’ livesof being courted and despised;deep from raw throatsa senseless order floatsall over town. A rooster gloatsover our bedsfrom rusty irons shedsand fences made from old bedsteads,over our churches where the tin rooster perches,over our little wooden northern houses,making sallies from all the muddy alleys,marking out maps like Rand McNally’s:glass-headed pins,oil-golds and copper greens,anthracite blues, alizarins,each one an active displacement in perspective;each screaming, “This is where I live!”Each screaming“Get up! Stop dreaming!”Roosters, what are you projecting?You, whom the Greeks electedto shoot at on a post, who struggledwhen sacrificed, you whom they labeled“Very combative…”what right have you to give commands and tell us how to live,cry “Here!” and “Here!”and wake us here where areunwanted love, conceit and war?The crown of redset on your little headis charged with all your fighting bloodYes, that excrescencemakes a most virile presence,plus all that vulgar beauty of iridescenceNow in mid-airby two they fight each other.Down comes a first flame-feather,and one is flying,with raging heroism defyingeven the sensation of dying.And one has fallenbut still above the townhis torn-out, bloodied feathers drift down;and what he sungno matter. He is flungon the gray ash-heap, lies in dungwith his dead wiveswith open, bloody eyes,while those metallic feathers oxidize.St. Peter’s sinwas worse than that of Magdalenwhose sin was of the flesh alone;of spirit, Peter’s,falling, beneath the flares,among the “servants and officers.”Old holy sculpturecould set it all togetherin one small scene, past and future:Christ stands amazed,Peter, two fingers raisedto surprised lips, both as if dazed.But in betweena little cock is seencarved on a dim column in the travertine,explained by gallus canit;flet Petrus underneath it,There is inescapable hope, the pivot;yes, and there Peter’s tearsrun down our chanticleer’ssides and gem his spurs.Tear-encrusted thickas a medieval reliche waits. Poor Peter, heart-sick,still cannot guessthose cock-a-doodles yet might bless,his dreadful rooster come to mean forgiveness,a new weathervaneon basilica and barn,and that outside the Lateranthere would always bea bronze cock on a porphyrypillar so the people and the Pope might seethat event the Princeof the Apostles long sincehad been forgiven, and to convinceall the assemblythat “Deny deny deny”is not all the roosters cry.In the morninga low light is floatingin the backyard, and gildingfrom underneaththe broccoli, leaf by leaf;how could the night have come to grief?gilding the tinyfloating swallow’s bellyand lines of pink cloud in the sky,the day’s preamblelike wandering lines in marble,The cocks are now almost inaudible.The sun climbs in,following “to see the end,”faithful as enemy, or friend.
- Elizabeth Bishop

Roosters

At four o’clock
in the gun-metal blue dark
we hear the first crow of the first cock

just below
the gun-metal blue window
and immediately there is an echo

off in the distance,
then one from the backyard fence,
then one, with horrible insistence,

grates like a wet match
from the broccoli patch,
flares,and all over town begins to catch.

Cries galore
come from the water-closet door,
from the dropping-plastered henhouse floor,

where in the blue blur
their rusting wives admire,
the roosters brace their cruel feet and glare

with stupid eyes
while from their beaks there rise
the uncontrolled, traditional cries.

Deep from protruding chests
in green-gold medals dressed,
planned to command and terrorize the rest,

the many wives
who lead hens’ lives
of being courted and despised;

deep from raw throats
a senseless order floats
all over town. A rooster gloats

over our beds
from rusty irons sheds
and fences made from old bedsteads,

over our churches
where the tin rooster perches,
over our little wooden northern houses,

making sallies
from all the muddy alleys,
marking out maps like Rand McNally’s:

glass-headed pins,
oil-golds and copper greens,
anthracite blues, alizarins,

each one an active
displacement in perspective;
each screaming, “This is where I live!”

Each screaming
“Get up! Stop dreaming!”
Roosters, what are you projecting?

You, whom the Greeks elected
to shoot at on a post, who struggled
when sacrificed, you whom they labeled

“Very combative…”
what right have you to give
commands and tell us how to live,

cry “Here!” and “Here!”
and wake us here where are
unwanted love, conceit and war?

The crown of red
set on your little head
is charged with all your fighting blood

Yes, that excrescence
makes a most virile presence,
plus all that vulgar beauty of iridescence

Now in mid-air
by two they fight each other.
Down comes a first flame-feather,

and one is flying,
with raging heroism defying
even the sensation of dying.

And one has fallen
but still above the town
his torn-out, bloodied feathers drift down;

and what he sung
no matter. He is flung
on the gray ash-heap, lies in dung

with his dead wives
with open, bloody eyes,
while those metallic feathers oxidize.


St. Peter’s sin
was worse than that of Magdalen
whose sin was of the flesh alone;

of spirit, Peter’s,
falling, beneath the flares,
among the “servants and officers.”

Old holy sculpture
could set it all together
in one small scene, past and future:

Christ stands amazed,
Peter, two fingers raised
to surprised lips, both as if dazed.

But in between
a little cock is seen
carved on a dim column in the travertine,

explained by gallus canit;
flet Petrus underneath it,
There is inescapable hope, the pivot;

yes, and there Peter’s tears
run down our chanticleer’s
sides and gem his spurs.

Tear-encrusted thick
as a medieval relic
he waits. Poor Peter, heart-sick,

still cannot guess
those cock-a-doodles yet might bless,
his dreadful rooster come to mean forgiveness,

a new weathervane
on basilica and barn,
and that outside the Lateran

there would always be
a bronze cock on a porphyry
pillar so the people and the Pope might see

that event the Prince
of the Apostles long since
had been forgiven, and to convince

all the assembly
that “Deny deny deny”
is not all the roosters cry.

In the morning
a low light is floating
in the backyard, and gilding

from underneath
the broccoli, leaf by leaf;
how could the night have come to grief?

gilding the tiny
floating swallow’s belly
and lines of pink cloud in the sky,

the day’s preamble
like wandering lines in marble,
The cocks are now almost inaudible.

The sun climbs in,
following “to see the end,”
faithful as enemy, or friend.

- Elizabeth Bishop

Women, poets, and especially artists, like cats; delicate natures only can realize their sensitive systems.

Helen M. Winslow (via taeminho)

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